Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Sometimes I do feel I want to close off my blog altogether. very hard to find time to blog.... unless I'm very sick stay at home, or on leave.
Sorry guys, only read all your comments only now... all are vintage now. haha...
Time flies this year and I wonder what have I been doing. WORK WORK and WORK...
I'm now used to the lifestyle I have in Citi, not like in the beginning alot of late nights. There are times I can knock off earlier. God has been good to me in Citi. I've found favor with my boss. There were difficult times but I think I've grown here...
I also started thinking a lot... as always..
I'm now in a new cg, having a great mentor and building new friendships here.
When I look back into my life, I saw many landmarks and God's footprints...
I started to recall how I came to church. The 1st time I came to church is a deliverance session by Pastor Mike Connell, next thing I knew was I was mightily delivered, followed by strong persecution.
I remembered the times when I "siao on", bus down my JC friends to a BIG day where every newcomer gets a free burger. haha. To think of it now, it's so funny. I must have "sold" them the concept of "free burgers". The only thing is that during that day, I couldn't go church because my dad locked me up at home. Brother Andrew during then called me to give a report of how my friends are taken care of at the Hollywood place.
My turning point is always the Bible school 2003. Never forget the time when I was seated on the bus alone and I heard God speaking to me "Go!". I signed up and at the same time became a cgl. I remembered those days, I slept 4 hours a day. Cos I was in my final year in NUS, 3 tuition, hostel heads, a lot of events in hall and not to forget about cell group ministry. I dunno how I survived those days with so little sleep but I survived.
When I first started as a CGL, I felt like giving up all the time. Very "siong" ah.
I remembered my 1st outreach, 2 members came up to me and said " Sister Linying, today will be the last day we'll be attending cell group" . I felt so "chuui" that time. I don't have a lot of new potential friends that day lor. It was so "chui".....
However God is good to me... Every time when my cg is not growing, I will start putting a bigger offering during service and write on the envelop how many souls I want to have. Things started happening with tears and sowing. During those years, I will attend many services (Jurong West have 5 or 6) with my members and I will always challenge them to invite friends. Very siong, and looking back, "heng ah" many are still around, did not burn out because of me. Sunday night after the helpers and leaders' meeting at Clementi, I will go Kembangan with Rio, Melissa, Fredrick, Junping etc to do visitation. Very Siong. I'm so glad these members during then never get exhausted. haha. But I never regretted those days when I do "cold" visitation, door to door knocking and visiting them. Cg grew and multiply grew and multiply and many are still serving today. It was all worth it.
Those were exciting times, no money, not much creativity. But God always show me his grace.
Every breakthroughs were done through praying and fasting with much tears and sweat. I can always identify the statements " pockets are empty but hearts are full" ..
When I looked back to what God has brought me, my heart is filled with thanksgiving. I started to weep as well cos I missed God's presence, and I know that those breakthroughs were not done cos of me, but I know it's God who makes it happen. And I know God is with me all these while.
Wilderness is not forever, just keep walking like Psalmist David. But Wilderness also taught me who are my true friends, who will stand by me... It's a process I've to go through and I will come through.
Now I'm very "zuo bo", I know this is the season of my life when I need to sort many things out as there are so many transitions in my life.
I don't want to stay in my transition forever. Recently, I was meditating on 1 Sam 17: 34, I remembered God gave me the lions and the bears, I just keep walking and walking and walking.
I'm looking forward so much to my compliance leave of 10 days in Dec. Woooohooo!... I will end my year on 16th Dec. Cannot meet customers, cannot log into the pc, cannot do anything.. yeah haha...
Just having a thought. Just a thought. I was wondering should I start doing some visitation. At least help my current cgl to grow the cg la... Just a thought. At least I can be a good member over here. haha...
I missed God's presence and when I looked back, I am thankful for the so many things He has done for my life.
Sorry guys, only read all your comments only now... all are vintage now. haha...
Time flies this year and I wonder what have I been doing. WORK WORK and WORK...
I'm now used to the lifestyle I have in Citi, not like in the beginning alot of late nights. There are times I can knock off earlier. God has been good to me in Citi. I've found favor with my boss. There were difficult times but I think I've grown here...
I also started thinking a lot... as always..
I'm now in a new cg, having a great mentor and building new friendships here.
When I look back into my life, I saw many landmarks and God's footprints...
I started to recall how I came to church. The 1st time I came to church is a deliverance session by Pastor Mike Connell, next thing I knew was I was mightily delivered, followed by strong persecution.
I remembered the times when I "siao on", bus down my JC friends to a BIG day where every newcomer gets a free burger. haha. To think of it now, it's so funny. I must have "sold" them the concept of "free burgers". The only thing is that during that day, I couldn't go church because my dad locked me up at home. Brother Andrew during then called me to give a report of how my friends are taken care of at the Hollywood place.
My turning point is always the Bible school 2003. Never forget the time when I was seated on the bus alone and I heard God speaking to me "Go!". I signed up and at the same time became a cgl. I remembered those days, I slept 4 hours a day. Cos I was in my final year in NUS, 3 tuition, hostel heads, a lot of events in hall and not to forget about cell group ministry. I dunno how I survived those days with so little sleep but I survived.
When I first started as a CGL, I felt like giving up all the time. Very "siong" ah.
I remembered my 1st outreach, 2 members came up to me and said " Sister Linying, today will be the last day we'll be attending cell group" . I felt so "chuui" that time. I don't have a lot of new potential friends that day lor. It was so "chui".....
However God is good to me... Every time when my cg is not growing, I will start putting a bigger offering during service and write on the envelop how many souls I want to have. Things started happening with tears and sowing. During those years, I will attend many services (Jurong West have 5 or 6) with my members and I will always challenge them to invite friends. Very siong, and looking back, "heng ah" many are still around, did not burn out because of me. Sunday night after the helpers and leaders' meeting at Clementi, I will go Kembangan with Rio, Melissa, Fredrick, Junping etc to do visitation. Very Siong. I'm so glad these members during then never get exhausted. haha. But I never regretted those days when I do "cold" visitation, door to door knocking and visiting them. Cg grew and multiply grew and multiply and many are still serving today. It was all worth it.
Those were exciting times, no money, not much creativity. But God always show me his grace.
Every breakthroughs were done through praying and fasting with much tears and sweat. I can always identify the statements " pockets are empty but hearts are full" ..
When I looked back to what God has brought me, my heart is filled with thanksgiving. I started to weep as well cos I missed God's presence, and I know that those breakthroughs were not done cos of me, but I know it's God who makes it happen. And I know God is with me all these while.
Wilderness is not forever, just keep walking like Psalmist David. But Wilderness also taught me who are my true friends, who will stand by me... It's a process I've to go through and I will come through.
Now I'm very "zuo bo", I know this is the season of my life when I need to sort many things out as there are so many transitions in my life.
I don't want to stay in my transition forever. Recently, I was meditating on 1 Sam 17: 34, I remembered God gave me the lions and the bears, I just keep walking and walking and walking.
I'm looking forward so much to my compliance leave of 10 days in Dec. Woooohooo!... I will end my year on 16th Dec. Cannot meet customers, cannot log into the pc, cannot do anything.. yeah haha...
Just having a thought. Just a thought. I was wondering should I start doing some visitation. At least help my current cgl to grow the cg la... Just a thought. At least I can be a good member over here. haha...
I missed God's presence and when I looked back, I am thankful for the so many things He has done for my life.
Linying Sign off, 8:57 AM.
