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I love my son!

2010-03-07T02:06:00.000-08:00

My 2 plus year old boy had a 1.5cm cut on his big toe when he tried to open the door as we are leaving the cell group place at Yvonne and Victor's house. Flap of skin came out and blood was oozing out of the wounds. He didn't cry but only complained that it's painful. Joseph washed his wounds immediately and still he didn't cry. Yvonne quickly put a plaster over the wound and he was very calm throughout. We were so amazed at his bravery! What a courageous boy! Mummy is so proud of you.
He kept unusually quiet in the car when Jo drove us home. Only to jump up when he heard the word "Mac Donald" when a member mentioned this in the car. Mac Donald sure have a irresistible charm for all young kiddos! ~ haha.
My boy also said something quite amazing recently. We often prayed in the car and he will started asking us to pray for him, followed by mummy, daddy, his grandmother, grandfather, pet dog and so on and so forth. Now he would say " Ki la ba ba", imitating us praying in tongues. It was so funny! But we tried not to laugh so as not to discourage him from "praying in the spirit".

Jayden likes to watch Transformer and it was quite amazing that he knows the names " bumber bee,autobots, optimus prime and even decepticon". He call the male lead actor as " kor kor" and lead actress as "jie jie". He asked me one day " Jie Jie is very pretty, can i bring home?" I was speechless. Another time " Jie Jie and Kor Kor Kor kissed mouth, can i kiss your mouth?" Joseph and I took pain to explain to him "Only Jie Jie and Kor Kor can, Mummy and son cannot, daddy and son cannot." Oh my gosh, don't know if he understands. We are just afraid we might received calls from the child care that he kissed girls in class! lol!

I must says that this boy brings much joy into our lives! What a gift and blessing from God!

Reflection and updates

2010-03-03T21:48:00.000-08:00

This is it! Today I had bleeding suddenly, fresh blood. I rushed to the Gynae with Joseph and had a jab as my uterus is bleeding. I'm now on 1 week mc. I have think of nothing else, priority is my baby and to rest and rest and rest.
This week has been very draining for me, not because of work but because of some nonsense that is going around. There are just all sort of people, murmuring, gossiping, twisting words, and saying things that I don't even know. These people are just horrible, nothing better to do just like to talk and talk.人言可畏. Sometimes misunderstandings and unnecessary spinnings are caused by such.
Someone said I've got a promotion. Woohoo! Strange, I did not even know that!?? haha. Sounds like a good prophecy. lol
Another someone who left the bank long long time ago knows what are the cases I closed, who leave and etc! Wow! That's better than CNN!
Another person from a very distant far far away land said another amazing thing that I was crying cos of another so and so... sigh... please la, where did you see me cry, how did you see me cry? I cry very easily. Not only did I cry. Many hundreds and thousands cry together with me. lol! Let me give a few options, guess which is the right answer?
1) touched by God in church service?
2) watched a touching Titantic movie replaying at channel 5?
3) Acting in a drama series?
4) Family Disputes? or worst still,
5)somebody in my family died? (choy!).
The fact is somehow people will an interpreted differently and non of the answers above and start again spread la and spread and spread and spread la.
Stop sowing discords sia? Brothers and Sisters, believers or not, this is something that God hates. and enough is enough, I had enough of all these nonsense. I can't stop these rumors from spreading, but I just got to be careful and know that these words are purely malicious and sprang from a bitter poisonous spirit? sigh sigh.... No wonder the bible says the tongue is like a little fire that can cause a forest fire in James! Tsk Tsk. Sigh.
Well, I'm going to play the bo chup role, not going to care so much about what people say, how people interpret, who say what, what say who. It's non of your business and non of my business!
I'm going to shut my ears, shut my mouth, do my own things and live my quiet life with my family and earn a decent living in Citibank. I'm not mad nor angry... just got to move on and commit everything to God. lol!
Don't think nor spin too much. :)
This is my prayer, if my heart is not right before You, please rebuke/correct me. If I don't get it, then speak to Me through the service/ cell group or somebody who is spiritually more mature than me. I want to be teachable and mouldable and please bring. me back to the 1st love if I were to stray. I am far and very far from perfection, that why I need Your Grace and Mercy and Protection. Help me to walk through the valley, and not to repeat my mistakes again. You will not shame me nor reject me, cause You created me to love me. I'm sorry that I caused some heartaches to You at times, but please forgive me and help me to get up and walk with you again.
In You, I am more than a conquerer! I confess by faith and walk by faith and in accordance to Your Words, cos that's what pleases You. When I'm weak, You are strong! Finally, I speak to my soul, PROSPER and my every aspect of my life will flourish!
In Jesus' Name, Amen.

Spottings

2010-02-28T07:31:00.000-08:00

I'm now at my 14-15th week of my pregnancy and for the last 2 weeks been having some light brown/pinkish spotting which cause some undue worries.
Been taking the medicine meant to help stablises the womb. The medicine does help but the spotting kept coming back if I missed it by 2 hours or so. This is even more so for the last 2 days. Read up some information on this online, seemed that it's common but need a lot of bed rest and care. No caffeine, stay happy, think happy things, eat proper and regular, don't rush etc I guess will help I guess.
Most likely I will see my Gynae tomorrow. Please pray for me and my baby and I can have full term delivery.

Some thoughts

2010-02-26T19:14:00.000-08:00

MFA finds Ionescu’s comments "puzzling"
Channel NewsAsia
Channel NewsAsia - Saturday, February 27

[MFA finds Ionescu’s comments ] MFA finds Ionescu’s comments "puzzling"

SINGAPORE: Singapore’s Ministry of Foreign Affairs (MFA) has said it is puzzled by comments made to the media by the former Romanian Charge d’Affaires linked to a hit—and—run case here.

Dr Silviu Ionescu had said that prosecutors in Singapore were accusing him long before they had the right to do so.

The Ministry said this in response to Dr Ionescu’s remark that there should be a preliminary inquiry first and that this was clearly a sign that he should not return to the island—state.

In a statement released Friday, MFA said no charges have been made and no judgement has been passed on Dr Ionescu.

"As Singapore has made clear, the Coroner’s Inquiry to be held from 3 to 10 March 2010 into the death of Mr Tong Kok Wai is not a criminal trial. The Coroner’s Inquiry is simply to ascertain the facts and circumstances of the death," MFA said.

It reiterated that police investigations have revealed that the driver of the vehicle at the time of the two accidents was Dr Silviu Ionescu.

It noted that Dr Ionescu has denied this.

"As we have said many times, if Dr Ionescu was not the driver as he claims, then he should take the opportunity to attend the Inquiry to give his account of the events and pose questions to the witnesses, in order that the true circumstances surrounding the accidents may be determined," MFA said.

"Singapore’s legal system is well—known internationally for its integrity and transparency. The Coroner will make a finding based on the evidence presented before him."

There is a Coroner’s Inquiry next Wednesday into the death of Tong Kok Wai.

MFA has sought the assistance of the Romanian Embassy to request Dr Ionescu to return to Singapore to attend the Coroner’s Inquiry as an "interested person" and not as a potential defendant.

It said that the Public Prosecutor has not decided whether it is appropriate to charge Dr Ionescu for any offences.

It added that the decision will be taken only after all the facts have been clarified at the Coroner’s Inquiry.

"If the Coroner rules that Dr Ionescu was not the driver, no charges against him will be made. For this reason, it is in Dr Ionescu’s interest to return to Singapore to put his version before the Coroner or to appoint a lawyer in Singapore to do so on his behalf," MFA said.

It also said found another comment made by Dr Ionescu "shocking".

Dr Ionescu had reportedly said: "Someone died. It’s not something solitary, but happens all over the world. There are bigger stories out there".

"We trust the Romanian authorities do not share Dr Ionescu’s irresponsible and callous attitude," MFA said.

— CNA/yb

I've been following with this new recently. Something fishy here. I'm so glad our government made a firm stand on this gruesome car accident that result in 1 death 2 seriously injured.
It all seemed to glaringly suspicious for someone who claimed not to be guilty of the incident through the response that he gave.
Well, it doesn't mean if you are someone with authority with power or some social influence means you won't do things wrong. After all the greatest revelation that we are all human beings who are far from imperfection. lol!
But if someone who just want to shrug off responsibility and start pointing fingers at others, that's very irresponsible and disqualify himself from leadership.
Isn't it true? I'm not saying that Dr Ionesu is wrong, but I'm saying that if anyone has done anything wrong, it's so hard at times to humble themselves to say that "I'm wrong, I'm sorry" and show fruits of repentance. This is even more humbling when you are someone with authority, influence status and power.
Guess we all need Jesus, we are far far far FAR from perfection. In the process of refining us, God sometimes make us go through many process of humbling as there will be certain prides stubbornness in our lives that God wants to deal with.
What goes around comes around. What you sow, you will reap.
Hence the higher you climbed in whatever social status, the greater the responsibility and greater humility is needed.
We should all walk circumspectly having the fear of the Lord! Someone up there is watching! Lol!

Thanks Ruxin!

2010-02-07T00:46:00.000-08:00

Wow! I think I'm a mountain tortoise! Thanks to Ruxin for the make over of my blog.
haha. Hope everything goes well with you for your new job~!
I'm glad that I'm now 12 weeks pregnant and should anyone asked me about my pregnancy, I should be cool to tell. Quite a taboo to make known your pregnancy in a corporate company like that.Yesterday, my bossed said that he had been noticing that I've been wearing "flats" and he popped the question, "are you pregnant?". And to my surprise, I said "yes" and for a moment he thought I was joking and looked very shocked. He congratulates me eventually, smiled and told me to go on slower pace and I think everything should be ok. haha.
My due date is 26th Aug. So far has been quite accurate. All I asked is for a healthy baby. My gut feel is going to be a girl. Anyway, I will only know the gender in 1-2 months time.
Yian Yian (dialect, my boy's xiao3 ming2) is now taller and tanner than before. Maybe is because we changed his childcare to Carpe Diem at Alexandra Road. It's a non-air conditioned landed area but well ventilated. He runs, play with the sand and sometimes outdoor water play. He gets in touch with the nature everyday with pets like rabbits, ducks, chickens and fishes. He can be very mischievous at times, and get spanking from us. But many times it is very enjoyable to hold a conversation with him.

Anyway, going off for reunion lunch and dinner to both sides of our family!

Huat ah!!!

Updates

2010-02-04T21:08:00.000-08:00

January just passed with a blink of the eye.
Time flies and Jayden is going to be 3 years old soon.
Glad I made the decision to go Citi, busy tiring but never regret the move.
A lot of opportunities provided. I just passed my modules for AWP, now going to take another 2 papers for CFP. I guess i just prefer to be working in the corporate environment.
Guess after another 1 year, then I'll move on to Private banks if possible to do trust planning.
Jo now just started A star doing business development for electric car. Some thing that he likes and job scope can give him a balanced life style.
We are thinking of having a maid soon. Got to pray for a decent one, got very bad experience the last time round.
Enjoy the tuesday meeting with pastor Tan. It's always so revelational. Jo and I cried and cried. Haha. I'm a cry baby cry too easily.
Had craving for tian ji zou (frog Porridge) recently. Jo and I went for supper without Jayden. Jo couldn't sleep the whole night while I was so satisfied, I slept so well. Haha
Victor and Yvonne have been really good friends and gave us very good support.
The older I get, the more I think about friendships are impt. Guess I got to sow into their lives.
Cindy and Sharon are good friends to have in Citi. Get to know them more here while going through the same culture, work load etc. And I'm so glad that Cindy is attached to her "Ah fat". Hope Sharon will be next. haha
Had a great lunch with Aaron Chew. He's one of those who is interesting to talk to and keep the friendship. He bought a drumset for Jayden! and I must remember not to let him play at night.Ha!
Tonight will have s steamboat cg at Yvonne's place. Victor is still at Haiti. Thank God it's friday!

My Xmas Wishlist

2009-12-13T22:59:00.000-08:00

My Xmas Wish list/Prayer list/Things to do list

1. To have a baby... (inception inception!!)
2. To move from Citigold to CPC?
3. To give my blog a better look.(can someone teach me how to do this ah? I download templates but keep getting error. arrgh)
4. To go for 4 holidays at least next year
5. To exercise every sunday
6. To increase my weight to 45 kg
7. To buy a condominium by Feb 2010
8. To invite personally at least 10 friends to Xmas svc
9. To read at least 1 good book by end of year and 5 next year.
10. To sow into some good friends' lives.
11. To give away 10% of my income to the poor and needy.
12. To complete another 2 module of CPF by end of year.
13. All my insurance cases submitted to incept asap!!!!! SC's one by 23rd Dec!!!!
14. Pray for at least 30 mins daily and meditate and Memorize 1-2 verses per week?
15. To be happy and healthy.

Looking back

2009-11-11T08:57:00.000-08:00

Sometimes I do feel I want to close off my blog altogether. very hard to find time to blog.... unless I'm very sick stay at home, or on leave.

Sorry guys, only read all your comments only now... all are vintage now. haha...

Time flies this year and I wonder what have I been doing. WORK WORK and WORK...

I'm now used to the lifestyle I have in Citi, not like in the beginning alot of late nights. There are times I can knock off earlier. God has been good to me in Citi. I've found favor with my boss. There were difficult times but I think I've grown here...

I also started thinking a lot... as always..

I'm now in a new cg, having a great mentor and building new friendships here.

When I look back into my life, I saw many landmarks and God's footprints...

I started to recall how I came to church. The 1st time I came to church is a deliverance session by Pastor Mike Connell, next thing I knew was I was mightily delivered, followed by strong persecution.

I remembered the times when I "siao on", bus down my JC friends to a BIG day where every newcomer gets a free burger. haha. To think of it now, it's so funny. I must have "sold" them the concept of "free burgers". The only thing is that during that day, I couldn't go church because my dad locked me up at home. Brother Andrew during then called me to give a report of how my friends are taken care of at the Hollywood place.

My turning point is always the Bible school 2003. Never forget the time when I was seated on the bus alone and I heard God speaking to me "Go!". I signed up and at the same time became a cgl. I remembered those days, I slept 4 hours a day. Cos I was in my final year in NUS, 3 tuition, hostel heads, a lot of events in hall and not to forget about cell group ministry. I dunno how I survived those days with so little sleep but I survived.

When I first started as a CGL, I felt like giving up all the time. Very "siong" ah.
I remembered my 1st outreach, 2 members came up to me and said " Sister Linying, today will be the last day we'll be attending cell group" . I felt so "chuui" that time. I don't have a lot of new potential friends that day lor. It was so "chui".....

However God is good to me... Every time when my cg is not growing, I will start putting a bigger offering during service and write on the envelop how many souls I want to have. Things started happening with tears and sowing. During those years, I will attend many services (Jurong West have 5 or 6) with my members and I will always challenge them to invite friends. Very siong, and looking back, "heng ah" many are still around, did not burn out because of me. Sunday night after the helpers and leaders' meeting at Clementi, I will go Kembangan with Rio, Melissa, Fredrick, Junping etc to do visitation. Very Siong. I'm so glad these members during then never get exhausted. haha. But I never regretted those days when I do "cold" visitation, door to door knocking and visiting them. Cg grew and multiply grew and multiply and many are still serving today. It was all worth it.

Those were exciting times, no money, not much creativity. But God always show me his grace.
Every breakthroughs were done through praying and fasting with much tears and sweat. I can always identify the statements " pockets are empty but hearts are full" ..

When I looked back to what God has brought me, my heart is filled with thanksgiving. I started to weep as well cos I missed God's presence, and I know that those breakthroughs were not done cos of me, but I know it's God who makes it happen. And I know God is with me all these while.

Wilderness is not forever, just keep walking like Psalmist David. But Wilderness also taught me who are my true friends, who will stand by me... It's a process I've to go through and I will come through.

Now I'm very "zuo bo", I know this is the season of my life when I need to sort many things out as there are so many transitions in my life.

I don't want to stay in my transition forever. Recently, I was meditating on 1 Sam 17: 34, I remembered God gave me the lions and the bears, I just keep walking and walking and walking.

I'm looking forward so much to my compliance leave of 10 days in Dec. Woooohooo!... I will end my year on 16th Dec. Cannot meet customers, cannot log into the pc, cannot do anything.. yeah haha...

Just having a thought. Just a thought. I was wondering should I start doing some visitation. At least help my current cgl to grow the cg la... Just a thought. At least I can be a good member over here. haha...

I missed God's presence and when I looked back, I am thankful for the so many things He has done for my life.

1st blog in 2009

2009-02-14T09:38:00.000-08:00

Received "complaints" that I did not update my blog... realised that the last time i blog was 3 month ago... *faint**

Just went out to spend time with joseph without jayden... phew.. Jayden is now about 12kg, more than 25% of my weight. bringing him out is never easy... for once, it's only me and Jo spending time together without having to worry milk powder and diaper etc... Had a sumptous buffet at taka family international buffet. Food so so only la... thank God I can eat and eat without thinking of putting on weight... hehehe

Then after which we started shopping at taka... feel so shiok to spend vouchers given by Citi without feeling a pinch, a good $1200 vouchers which I can buy anything i want.

Some changes to both cell groups... doing some restructuring... think it's the best thing for the members, not to stay in comfort zone but move on...

Have been in Citi for about 7 months now.. time flies man... there are many "arrows" and "darts" flying around at times. People of the world are really different esp in one of the most competitive bank in this part of the world. No wonder the bible says got to be as gentle as a dove and as shrewd as a serpent. In my opinion, CHC has taught many of us good values, attitudes, how to honour others, how to be a blessings and all which are all things we christians should do. But I was also reminded about being shrewd. Coming from NGO where the enviroment is "churchy" and everyone is good to another, helping one another is not an issue as you know kindness will be reciprocated. However, in Citi, I've to learn to be wise, who to talk to, what to say and how to say. We all know about cultural mandate through Pastor Kong's preaching. Now is really Cultural mandate in action. How to be in the world and not of the world. Politics are inevitable and unavoidable. And you can really see that fallen man are still struggling with the same issues. Someone said, if you really want to know a person, give him all the power, all the money and all the fame... it will really magnify his heart desires. sometimes the things at work is very stressful and time consuming. Feel at times mentally emotionally and physically so tiring. It seems that when I go home, I can't stop thinking about work at times. Sometimes, also feel that it's hard to share with friends in the zone as there are not much opportunities for fellowship. Everything at least for me is always in a rush... Work, family, cg... then work, family, cg... and then work family, cg...

So I've to pray and please really keep me in prayer. I have done quite well in the last quarter, getting quite a good commission. But i want to make a difference. A difference to the lives of the people here. But not to be naive or gullible to be taken advantage by others.

Time for family is lesser. but they are still my priority. Got to pray for wisdom and strength. Sometimes coming back home and putting Jayden to sleep, I'll find myself dozing off without removing my make up and all.

Guess it's all times and season... This is a season where I need to work hard and breakthrough will come... But I always remember what the Bible says.. What profit a man if he gains the whole world but loses his own soul". Work is important.. but God and family is still most important... So pray for me la... a mum with so many multiple roles....wife, mother, "maid", employee, a daughter, a sister, cell group leader, etc etc... But most important... I must remember I'm 1st of all a child of God.

Doing marketing with my Boy

2008-11-15T01:48:00.000-08:00

Was doing marketing after work with my mother-in-law and family last tuesday. I then realised that my mother-in-law often ferry him in this manner to Jurong Point.

He was very excited with such innovative "transportation", pointing his tiny finger at interesting things that he sees along the way. Giving directions as if he knows where to go.

And you know what, my mother in law is ordering a BIGGER RED trolley than this just to ferry him. Reason being he's a growing boy so need a bigger trolly. haha

Funny boy. Never fails to bring joy to my life

Coincidentally, the backdrop happens to be Citibank. After a long day, this is my greatest reward.

Latest pictures of Jayden

2008-11-10T07:39:00.000-08:00

As usual, a proud mummy who is trying to show off her baby...

these are the pictures that stored in my handphone that keeps me going...

Sometimes can feel bothered by things that have happened, words that people say, actions that people made, life itself etc... well, other than my Lord Jesus, my Joseph and my Jayden are the ones that keeps me going on...

Preached about valleys in cg and I think I'm going through one. The most important thing is to keep myself positive now, surround with positive friends around.

Back to Jayden again...

You know what, my boy likes to pose in front of my hp camera. He would point at the phone and prompted me in his own baby's language to take picture. Once he sees the flash, he would give that one million dollar smile. haha

2008-11-10T07:23:00.000-08:00

Have not beening blogging for the longest time. recieved "complaint" from ruxin on sun... Have been so busy with work.. citi.. so busy.. morning joseph rush jayden to Jurong west to my mother in law place with maid, went to Cuscaden, sometimes late appointments if not events in the evening. So tiring everyday.. But it's a good thing to catch up with friends once in a while.

Latest but not so new news is that Audrey is on hot date!!!! woah woah!!! somebody from BBG woah. Tell u this girl is destined to be blessed! Haha. Happy for you Audrey!! more good news from you soon.

Last week was one of those tiring week. Guess what, my ah boy swallowed a a fragment of the plastic fork, about 1 cm. That's horrifying to any parents!!!!arrrghhh

Rush him to KK hospital, took 3 X rays. He cried with all of his might. My ah boy sure use all his milk strength, screamed. How heart breaking it is. All clothes were taken off except his diapers. He has to be strapped and that's how's scary it is for a 16 months old boy.

Nothing can be found through the X ray as it was plastic, not dense enough for the X ray to pick up.

We were told to monitor him for a while to see if there's any symptoms like fever, vomiting or diarrhoea. They gave us a medicine which will help to make the stools soft so that he can hopefully pass out the plastic fork.

Guess what 2 days later, Jayden start to vomit and pass loose stools. Then it get worse. And this spreads to me and my mother in law. and now my Joseph too. sigh sigh.

Got to pray for healing and good health man.

2008-07-16T22:33:00.000-07:00

Joseph and I came to this SPC carwash along telok blangah road and were very impressed by the services. Basically those who doing the car wash for us belong to MINDS. They are a group of people who are intellectually challenged. About 7-8 of them clean and re-clean our little white vios with all their might all at the same time. One of them the supervisor took pain in pointing out to his workers which portion or corners of the car that they need to clean. Wow, this guy is very serious with his work. What warms my heart is to see all of them smiling happily while cleaning our car under the hot sun and waving at us through the windows. It seemed that the hot sun doesn't batter them at all. And most important of all, they are not limited by their own handicap. What a great attitude!!

I managed to take a picture of one of the MINDS person. His name was Alex and he readily posh for me when I requested for a picture. All of them gave us such a heart warming experiences that we decide to come back often for their carwash service.

Many thoughts came. I was so touched by these people. These MINDS people may not be as intelligent or sophisticated as many of us are, but they really have great attitude. Sometimes we whined with our lives and circumstances, complained about our jobs, about not having enough money, fear about the market changes etc. Well compared to these people, I think we are much more fortunate.. Some people may deem this as some low class occupation. I’ve been to many car washing services but I find none are as happy, passionate as these MINDs people, enjoying their lives, having a great positive attitude.

I just feel that the Lord is happy with them, simply because they are happy and value the lives that God has given them.
1 Tim 6:6. Now godliness with contentment is great gain.

Well, It’s time to give thanks and count our blessings!
When my boy is older, I will want him to get to know these people and to develop a heart of compassion and empathy for the less fortunate and learning to give back to society. I know a mother who started teaching his boy phonics at 2 months old. Yes it’s important to start learning at a young age but to me having a heart for society, giving back to the poor and needy is important as well. I don’t want to have a boy who is intelligent and getting all “As” in his schoolwork but scored zero when it comes to generosity and loving God wholehearted and loving people fervently.

reflection

2008-07-13T23:44:00.000-07:00

Long time have not been blogging.

Recently, I've been doing a lot of soul searching while taking care of Jayden before I start my new job in citibank. I've been with Prudential NGO for 3.5 yrs now under the leadership of Nicholas Goh. He has been a good and generous boss to all of us. I remembered it was quite difficult during the 1st year where I had to stand long hours getting clients in roadshows. But skills start to pick up and I began to know how to go about doing the business through more effective means. Well, I decide to move on after much consideration for career advancement and personal development. NGO has a good christian enviroment and it's also a place where I think much of me has been developed mentally, emotionally and spiritually.

Anyway, I have been impacted by what was preached during sunday service at jurong west. Pastor talked about this pastor Alex Abraham in Surubaya who has a humble begining as a taxi driver!! That was very encouraging, do not despise the days of small beginnings. He went sharing Pastor Alex testimony of how he knocked down a boy who was bleeding from nose, ears mouth and he ran to a church. He prayed to the "Unknown God" of the church that if God would spare the life of the boy and his life, he would serve Him the rest of his life. Pastor Alex was arrested the next day and the police brought him to the hospital to see the "dead" boy. To all their surprise, the boy who sat on the hospital bed was normal and alive. Pastor Alex was then released and he started preaching the gospel since then and did many great and mighty things in Indonesia. He now has 130,000 members in all his affliated churches added together.

Pastor Kong then continue preaching about 4 simple points.

Self image: How we see ourselves

Self Worth: How we value ourselves

Self Esteem: How we feel ourselves

Self- Respect: How we honour about ourselves/ dignity

I was totally convicted by the message. A lot of conclusions and decisions made are based on how we feel. It's important to feel good about ourselves. Well, I decide the way to get myself feel good about myself is to based it on the Word of God. I began to start confessing and declaring to myself in the mirror " Linying, God is going to prosper you, you will have MORE than enough. You will have so much that you got to give them away! You can't stop the blessings of God in life!! Your team is going to GROW!!! If God is for me, who can be against me? You are going to have a BLESSED family! God loves you and you are the APPLE of God's eye~!!

Amen!!!

Personality test

2008-07-04T00:17:00.000-07:00

Was surfing and came across this interesting website. http://keirsey.com/sorter/selector.aspx

and here is my result.

Your Keirsey Temperament Sorter Results indicates that your personality type is that of the GUARDIAN

All Guardians (SJs) share the following core characteristics:

Guardians pride themselves on being dependable, helpful, and hard-working. Guardians are concerned citizens who trust authority, join groups, seek security, prize gratitude, and dream of meting out justice. Guardians tend to be dutiful, cautious, humble, and focused on credentials and traditions. Guardians make loyal mates, responsible parents, and stabilizing leaders. Guardians are the cornerstone of society, for they are the temperament given to serving and preserving our most important social institutions.

Guardians have natural talent in managing goods and services--from supervision to maintenance and supply -- and they use all their skills to keep things running smoothly in their families, communities, schools, churches, hospitals, and businesses. Guardians can have a lot of fun with their friends, but they are quite serious about their duties and responsibilities.

Guardians take pride in being dependable and trustworthy; if there's a job to be done, they can be counted on to put their shoulder to the wheel. Guardians also believe in law and order, and sometimes worry that respect for authority, even a fundamental sense of right and wrong, is being lost. Perhaps this is why Guardians honor customs and traditions so strongly -- they are familiar patterns that help bring stability to our modern, fast-paced world. Practical and down-to-earth, Guardians believe in following the rules and cooperating with others. They are not very comfortable winging it or blazing new trails; working steadily within the system is the Guardian way, for in the long run loyalty, discipline, and teamwork get the job done right.

Guardians are meticulous about schedules and have a sharp eye for proper procedures. They are cautious about change, even though they know that change can be healthy for an institution. Better to go slowly, they say, and look before you leap. Guardians make up as much as 40 to 45 percent of the population, and a good thing, because they usually end up doing all the indispensable but thankless jobs everyone taken granted for.

Interesting report of myself. Try it yourself.

Laminin-Indescribable God

2008-07-02T23:31:00.000-07:00

I'm very blown away by this sharing on Indescribable God by Louis Giglio. The 1st time I saw this is during C.O.D.E RED in Youth camp 08 few weeks back. He shared about how BIG the known universe is, show the pictures of different types of galaxies and their measurements in terms of billions of light years. I was captivated by the beautiful images he show of the universe.

What blown me away was this photograph taken by the Hubble Space Telescope. It is of the center of a black hole in a galaxy millions of light years from Earth. We Christians believe that God created the universe and everything in it. My 1st reaction was "WOW" . It's the picture of our Lord Jesus Christ!!

He went on to share about laminin. Laminin is kind of protein that acts as the glue that holds all of our trillions of cells together.Here is a diagram of what laminin looks like in scientific circles.

At the end of video, I couldn't help but was moved to tears. Whenever problems start to overwhelm me, pain or fear or anxiety hits me, or how powerless or defeat that I feel, I just need to know how BIG and how GREAT, how indescribable, how uncontainable my God is and that helps me to realise how small my problems are. I know now why Psalmist David says in Psalm 8:4 "What is man that You are mindful of him,And the son of man that You visit him?"

I think i know the answer. He loves me and have a great plan for me.

22nd June 08 Sunday Jayden's 1st Birthday

2008-06-30T09:12:00.000-07:00

Jayden's 1st birthday at yu jie's condominum, West Coast Rise. Big function room with nice swimming pool. This is a picture I've gotten from Mayce's blog. Jayden does look a little surprise. Probably he's wondering "why are they so many people eh?"

I don't know if this boy understand that this is his 1st birthday, but I'm sure he's very very happy. His presents are so so so many that we took quite some time to load all of them into the car and unpack them. It was exciting opening the presents for me. This happy go lucky boy just refused to go to sleep at 1230am. Finally I got to "force" him to his bed.

Always happy to see Jayden Happy. Eversince I become a mother, it deepens my understanding of God's love. Jayden always make my day. I love it when he laughs and give me those cheeky michevious look. He sure brighten up my tiring day each time.